I think it was rude to shoot down the Russian jet...

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Well, thanks for having heard and recalled something I said, but if you observe and sense the divinity of someone like Anandamayima, That to which she refers ( God) is not 'another entity' or anything to which one can become "attached" ( as if glued or stuck. Last night I was kept awake a while with thoughts, and the potent question I had was " Is God independent?" If I speak of a personal hypothetical independence, I may think I am speaking of a free condition- and of course there is no such thing as a free condition- the words are mutually exclusive and in contradistinction. If one could " surrender to God" and not something (else) it would only be Good- if indeed God wanted my submission. But God is not independent anyway, but It is All. And thus there is nothing that is real but God. I had a brief experience of eternality in 1971- a special and ominous life-altering experience- and it may well have been an Atman experience (depending on one's idea of Atman. The Self that God is, is Inclusive and "I" am That: the true and real 'I' is just that- It is the thing Gurus and Knowers want learners to Awaken to. It is the Ultimate, non-separate Truth of each of us. And folks like Anandamayima, Ramama Maharshi and Da speak variant dispositions geared towards listeners hoping to move them away from their illusions, egoity and help them move towards Bliss-Life that exists and is inherent. Personally I do not let go. I am not 'there' consciously where I very briefly was in 1971. The entirety of my being was focussed (briefly) by grace and observed literally the formless truth of forever ecstatic being. Of course we don't want to live in co-dependence with someone. "Ma" heard a voice said " To whom would you make obeisance? You are everything." (Which reminds me inevitably of a voice that I heard which , having said my name, also said, " Who is your boss?" To which I had no answer, since I thought for sure it surely did not mean Jim Andrews, my employer. Via that voice I determined something larger and more essential was at play, and I got myself fired, since I did not know how to quit. I maintain the separateness that blocks me from my true Heaven which is simply the no-more-separatedness. I know its true. Any of this seems so far removed from a bookload of Baha'i teachings ( as I have recently read them- so much compliance and beseeching of God's tolerance and grandness.) They are always insisting that God is unknowable- and even "Ma" says this, as re: the normal human mind. One little human mind cannot conceive nor recognize God, but released from my mind "I" can awaken.
I think it was rude to shoot down the Russian jet.